Wednesday, June 21, 2006

If It Doesn't Come Naturally, Leave It


Yes, another song title as my theme. I love music and poetry/prose, and when they come together brilliantly I am truly inspired. Seems to be the only thing to motivate me to post. I have to work on that.

Al Stewart is frequently in my mind/heart. In particular, The Year Of The Cat is in very close harmony with me. For a time I was completely mesmerized by this album. I probably still am. The title song started out as something different altogether. Inspired by the tragedy of comedian Tony Hancock. Recently I've been thinking about the tragic end of 'the Comedian' on my other hero's website. I was so disappointed to see it pulled.

I was really looking forward to this venture. I was really looking forward to getting involved in this venture. I cannot think of any other artist around today, or even throughout the course of my life - other than John Lennon - who has had such an impact on me. What a privilege to interact in a small part of his art. I thoroughly enjoyed the first time beyond measure. I have come to love many of his true fans and the chance to interact with them. I have so much to catch up with. So much to make amends with. So much to learn, to contribute, to build and to rebuild friendships.

Although disappointed I understand perfectly why it has been pulled now. A very wise move, I must admit - but unfortunate. I am also glad to see the diary note-by-way-of-explanation taken down too. I was becoming concerned to see so much criticism and attack of the Daily Mail prior to them making this specific error. Imagine if they decide not to run with this ? and still, they're completely vilified for it - that can't be good news. A tricky situation. Either way you lose. Handled far more masterfully than I would have, I am sure. I am too stubborn, too willing to fight. Funny that, because I am often accused of being a bit of a soft touch. A push over, especially when it comes to helping people one on one - with a bitter streak ready to take on the world.

No Wonder I'm a True Fan.

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Crossroads


Which way to go now? Many look appealing.

The unfortunate thing for us is that we cannot go in all directions at once. We must decide. I've been thinking a little lately about what guides my decision making. I was horrified. I have held myself back in many areas of life because of indecision. So many failings, so many shortcomings. However, I have somehow always been blessed at just the right time, right at the point of no return. I have always been saved in the nexus. Of course I have failed many times, and have a few scars to remind me. Life is a real struggle, and I often wonder how I am getting along at all. Overall though I have been guided and blessed by a much higher authority, and I thank God for saving me time and time again.

I have recently started a new job in the same organization I have been with for the past year and a half. I really hated my previous role. I am completely delighted with my new one. I love the job, and the people I am working with. I can't say this was the result of a cunning plan by me, but it is clearly the result of a cunning plan.

Dear God thank you, once again. Thank you. This is a huge responsibility and an enormous opportunity. Now I need your help every bit as much as I ever had before.